Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Too Early

It's just after 4:30 in the morning. I have been up since 3 am. I cannot sleep, once again. Last night I spent most of the morning tossing and turning with my mind just running as fast as it could. So, instead of spending hours doing that once again, I'm up writing in my blog watching The Office on Netflix. I hope I don't laugh too loud.

The job search is still ongoing. It seems like things are at least somewhat moving forward. There's a lot of opportunities out there but I guess the thing is just to see which ones work out or gets interviews or something. Jared is working hard. He says he feels busier now then he did when he was actually working. Honestly, getting a job is going to be like a vacation for this guy. We're hoping that when he does get a job that he can get the start date pushed back a week so we can take a vacation. If we have to move (Jared will not commute any further than he has to) than we'll be getting all that taken care of.

So, it's almost 5am....and I haven't really written much. Spent too much time watching netflix. I'm still not tired, sadly. I really wish I could have some sleep. I guess I slept most of the night a couple of nights ago....so I'll sleep again in about two weeks.

Friday, January 7, 2011

New Year, New Challenges

As we welcome in a new year, we welcome in new challenges with it. This is the year that Jared is getting out of the military (in a week actually!!). This is also the year that he'll be finding a new job, and starting his work on his Bachelor's degree. The kids we'll be turning another year older and we'll be celebrating our 10 year anniversary this year. Yup, a whole decade.

We are scared, but excited. Finding a job is going to be challenging. We were hoping something would have worked out by this point. No such luck yet. You never know what can happen in just a few short days. However, I know that is just hopeful thinking there. We are trying to stay as relaxed as we can about all this. Needless to say that we are getting very nervous. As Jared says, he can always get a job at Home Depot until something else works out.

The excitement of it all is that this is OUR house. YAY!! It's not a place that we are just living in until the military moves us anymore. This is OUR house. We are excited at all the fix-ups and such that we want to do to this place. It's going to be very different...eventually! It's probably going to take us years to get this place how we want, but we have the time now. We sell it if we want. That part is nice.

We do find it hard to keep the faith with everything. We both really believe that Jared getting out is the best choice. But short-term, it looks like such a stupid idea! It's hard to look past that sometimes. Once you start looking at the long-term consequences of staying in, it doesn't seem so stupid. It's just scary and hard to think about what we're going to do. It's very hard to find comfort at times with our decision when things just don't seem to be working out like you would hope. I mean, most of all that we hoped would work out would be Jared having a job by this coming week. Just having something all lined up for him to start after he's done would be perfect. I just don't know if it's going to work out that way. I know Jared is working hard to find a job and we're praying hard and living our lives the best we can. I know that doesn't always mean that things will work out, or that your life will be easy. I guess the biggest thing is that doing the right things makes your life easier than it would be otherwise in the same circumstances.

So here's to hope, here's to a new year and hopefully a successful change!