Venting, Ramblings....who knows

I'm tired...I haven't had a decent night sleep in I can't remember how long. Ellie is sick now and waking up in the middle of the night. That is really not helping. Poor thing, I hope she gets feeling better soon.

My house is a mess and I should be cleaning it, but I am just tired and not up to it. It takes everything I have just to try to exercise.

I have to exercise. I'm trying to do it to get my energy up and get healthy. The increased energy is not a benefit that I am getting from exercise. Honestly, I'm not noticing any benefits. It's been 3 weeks, I've gained weight and I'm still tired! I'm not sleeping better and I'm not any less stressed either. I still feel high-strung most of the time. Maybe it takes longer for the benefits of exercise to start manifesting themselves.

Patience is not one of my strongest personality traits.

Apparently I have TMJ, my jaw is very off. Thanks to a very thorough dentist we figured this out. The treatment: her recommendations- massage (because apparently I really need to relax) and an adjustment from the chiropractor. Also some physical therapy stuff she showed me. If that doesn't help then I'll need a mouth guard to push my lower jaw forward at night and help the muscles relearn how to hold my jaw. Seriously, I don't have money for this but my jaw hurts!

Maybe Jared will write in here more often so everyone isn't always reading my complaints! :-)

Mommyhood

• Sleep in way too long and rush my son through breakfast just to get him to school on time.
• Try not looking like I haven't showered today and sometimes even yesterday
• Almost forget my son has early out this week, AGAIN!
• Try to figure out when I need to step in and play referee.
• Listen to squeals and screams of fun and fighting....I wonder which one it is now?
• Oh man, did I forget to eat lunch again?
• Another diaper change!? Why won't you potty train? I know this is just to rebel against me!
• "Put clothes on! We need to get your brother!" She just wore a diaper...at least she didn't have to get out of the car
• I lose most of the time
• "Time for homework" ....deep moans....and then cooperation! YAY! Victory!
• "What are you doing up on that chair?!"
• Don't mess with that!
• How did you get so dirty?
• Is that your good pair of pants with the hole in the knee?
• Amazed and so proud at how well my son is starting to read
• Annoyed that my girl who could care less 2 minutes earlier where I was, now thinks she needs all my attention because brother is getting help on his homework!
• Amazed that I've survied staying at home for over 5 years now.
• Very much love my kids but am happy that they are distracted
• Very happy the paino has headsets, I can turn the volume way up and pretend I am alone for 2 minutes!
• I did forget to eat lunch.

"Mom!"