It's who I am

I am a wife, and a mother.

I am happy, sad, exhausted, energetic, joyful, depressed, excited, understanding, impatient, and mad. And I can be all those things at the same time.

I am beautiful. I am insecure about my looks.
I am intelligent and yet dumb at the same time.
I know what I'm saying even when it doesn't make sense.
I like to listen to music when I fall asleep.
I like who I am but hate it at the same time.
I am blunt and honest. I will probably offend many people.
I am loving and forgiving but will probably never forget that time you hurt me.
I like chocolate. I enjoy eating.
I love my children and my husband, even though they all drive me crazy.
I really don't enjoy sleeping that much. I would rather be awake doing something.
I yell when I'm mad.
Small things irritate me.
I enjoy a clean house but don't have the energy to clean it most of the time.
I am blonde, and I act it at times.
I am crazy, or can be.
I am shy now, although, at one time I wasn't.
I love 80's music.
I have dry skin.
I love my eyes.
I am stubborn.
I hate being alone but love it when I have I quiet house.
I don't like the military life, but I enjoy the security of it.
I feel old but know I am still young.
I like to exercise.
I hate my body. I have a low self-esteem.
I think my daughter is the most beautiful girl I've ever seen and am saddened at the fact that I know she's going to hate the way she looks one day.
I enjoy some 'girly' things.
I bite my nails.
I hate shaving my legs. They are too long, it's too much work.
I love wearing makeup and doing my hair when I have the time.
I enjoy working on my car and changing the oil.
I love to learn new things.
I can sew and crochet.
I love fixing up my house.
I hate chick flicks, but I love the idea of romance.
I need to be loved and shown love.
I need to be listened to sometimes.

Above all, I am a woman. I am moody and very emotional. I love it but wish it was easier to control at times. I believe because of it, I can feel great amounts of happiness and joy in the little things in my life. I can feel pain and sorrow more easily but it's worth it to me. I love being a woman. I love being me. It's who I am and I can't deny it, no matter how much you might hate it. I am changing what I can but accepting of what I can't. So love me for who I am, not what you want me to be.

My Bitter-Sweet Symphony

So today, here I am so proud of myself because I got up and exercised even though my muscles were just so sore! And then, I had to have that pizza I've been craving for days tonight for dinner........and those M&M's. Yes, the candy....wow...just couldn't pass it up. We went to wal-mart to get candy to reward the kids and there they were.....big bags of Peanut M&Ms, I mean bigger than movie theater size, marked for only $0.36. Yes, it was real! I couldn't resist. So we got 4 bags! Yeah, that's going to help me with this "Get Fit" challenge!! So much for eating healthier, at least right now! At least the exercising is going well.

I couldn't run last night because I started feeling like I was getting the stomach flu, again. Luckily that was gone this morning. I was able to do the morning Turbo Jam work-out and then the 'quiet time' weight lifting (only like 10-15 minutes) yesterday and today. Now, just have to get myself down on the treadmill tonight! It's not that much really. I only do the 20 minute Turbo jam....so that plus the weight lifting and no more than 30 minutes on the treadmill puts me at about an hour of working out a day. So, like I said...it's not that bad!

So here's hoping that I can keep up working out for the rest of the week....and get my husband to hand out all those bags of M&M's at work!

Exercise

So the hardest part of this whole 'Get Fit' thing is going to be exercise. I love it. I really do, but my problem is keeping up with it. I end up getting discouraged after awhile. Normally, I workout for weeks with absolutely no change. That is very hard for me. Last time, I actually started gaining weight. Oh how I wish I could say it was muscle, but sadly, it wasn't. Hopefully, I have better luck this time.

Okay, so I'm posting my plan so that I have my accountability with that too now. Jared has been needing to study nightly for his promotion test at the end of the month so I'm thinking of taking this time for a bit of running down on the treadmill-at least until the weather gets nicer and I dare venture outside to run. I'm also thinking of doing some Turbo Jam in the morning before the kids wake up. I know, it's twice a day, but in all honesty, I can't workout for long periods at a time so it's easier for me to split it up.

So that's the plan. It starts tomorrow.....best of luck.

Let's Begin

A friend of mine issued a challenge to get fit that I accepted. She has bravely posted her measurements on her blog to track her progress and I have agreed to do the same. So now, finally I am doing it. Stacy, so sorry it took so long. I have FINALLY started myself a blog of my own that I can do this on.

I am by no means what anyone would consider overweight or probably really even a little meaty. I know this....I understand this. I do, however, wish to get in better shape and just get some tone to my 'mommy body' that I vowed to never have. I'm looking forward to having the accountability of working out regularly, and hopefully eating better. I cannot diet. It's too restrictive, but I can make better choices.

All I ask is that if anyone comments on the 'get fit' posts, they just post words of encouragement. Please do not make comments about my already small enough size or how you wish you looked like me. I really don't like hearing it. I will make this clear, just because I have issues with the way I look, does not mean that I find anyone else fat or unattractive. I am basing my judgements on me and what I can look like....not what someone else can. I know I am not large....but I can look better...and I can work harder at it. That is why I am doing this.....to improve. Besides, as we all know.....as we workout, it gives us all a better attitude about ourselves.....and I really need it. So please, just encouragement. Thanks.

So, I better go get those measurements now..... :-)