Given Up!

I have absolutely given up trying to make my house look the way I want now. At this time, what is the point? According to the military, we have to move...that's just it. We have been here too long for them and it is time to move on. Okay, we have a year, but honestly, I don't feel like putting that much time, money and effort would be worth it all for me to enjoy it for such a short period of time. So, no new light fixtures, no big expensive fix-ups anymore, just things that will help this place sell better and maybe some fresh paint on a few rooms. Right now, we are replacing doors....how fun! Okay, it's not so bad. We just need the doors to match!

So where we going after this? No idea...maybe overseas...we are still trying to figure out what is the best way to go. For now, it's just getting this place ready for a sell...and hopefully a good one. On to finish hanging a door!

Gratitude

So I noticed that I've complained a lot on here lately. My whole life isn't full of complaining, in fact, Jared and I have been trying very hard lately to have more gratitude in our lives. We've been working on expressing our gratitude towards each other and also just about life in general. It has been great. We've been having some good times and conversations. We've been getting along better, so it's been very nice.

So, to up lift this blog a bit, here's some things I'm grateful for:

• My family, they drive me crazy but they are worth it.
• My husband-he's a good man...he really is
• Our house-it might not have everything we would like or all the space, but it's enough for us
• The military (yes I know) because we've had a steady paycheck for almost 10 years...and as low as it is, it's still enough for me to be able to stay home with the kids.
• The stability that we have right now (I hope that we can keep it)
• That my husband isn't one of those men that just say 'that's too bad....this is what I want to do, so deal with it or leave'.
• That my husband is willing to consider doing a job that he hates so that our family can be stable

I hope that life will work out right for us in the future. It's challenging, very challenging right now, to figure out what's best for our family.....so many factors to consider. Praying for the best!

Worst Military-Wife Ever

Yes, that is me...the worst military-wife ever. Why? Because I am not a big fan of the military life....not at all. I hate the lack of a 'normal' life. Being stable...no deployments, our choice of moving, not theirs. Jared has to move soon....so many places he can go. Do we wait for the military to pick our next place? If you know me, you know that's not okay with me. Special duty jobs avoid deployment....but we'd probably end up in Texas again...it wasn't our favorite place. Regular jobs will get him deployed. We've had such a lucky almost 10 years without this....chances aren't getting any better for avoiding a deployment. He'll probably get pushed to the top of the list for that one. Other choice, a job Jared would probably just hate. We'd get to pick where we moved, we'd get extra pay....we'd get no deployments.....but Jared would hate it...just hate it, we are sure. I'm horrible, because right now, that's the way I'd like to go....horrible horrible military wife. I should be okay, accepting of a deployment. I should know it's just part of the military life. Well, I don't want to be part of the military life! I want a normal life. I just want to live it, enjoy it. The kids....well, they do too. Devon isn't the happiest about the idea of moving. He's old enough he gets it now. It's hard...very hard. I'm not okay with deployment. I'm not okay with my husband gone for 6 months, leaving me to raise the kids, take care of everything, and be there when the kids are having a hard time because they don't get to see their dad. It's not right...it just isn't.