So..last night I had a fun girl's night. I mean, really, it was fun....but I came home just exhausted mentally. For the first time I can remember, I realized that socializing with large groups exhausts me. It's not that I don't like being around people. It's just that being around a lot of people completely wears me out mentally. I remember back, in high school, I never had a large group of friends. I didn't need one...probably couldn't have handled one. We all remember people that needed the large group of friends...or maybe you were one. It doesn't mean one is better that the other. It's just different. Some people get energized being around large groups of people, interacting, socializing....others, like me, get worn out doing that. We get energized being around small groups of people, or one-on-one interactions. I always thought I was a pretty social person....and you know, I am, in the right setting.
Thinking about this also helped me see why it takes me so long to make really good friends. Since I keep such a small social group of people around, I'm picky about who I let in. I have to be very comfortable around you to let you in as a close 'friend'. I honestly only have 2 good friends here, 1 far away, that know me better than anyone else. I can get along with almost anyone, but I like having my few close friends better.
So now....you know. I'm not anti-social...I like people. But I can only handle a few of you at a time!
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